The Album

The day was again intense. The lady told me what I wanted to hear... drink more water, eat more fruit, breathe deep, move, exercise, sleep... all the things I need to do more of but never seem to do enough of.

It was my first therapy session since I was really young, and this time, it was me wanting to go, not being forced. It was helpful and I'm excited to go back... it was also painful...I think I cried through the entire session. Allowing all of these pinned up feelings inside to resurface after all of these years, can sometimes be painful but helpful in the long run.

PTSD -- she thinks I may be suffering from it....maybe I have been for years even if I haven't realized it. She may be right. I will listen and learn, grow and move. I will learn to love myself.


Later in the night after the session, I went into the recording studio to finish up the last little bit of recording we need finished before we mix the entire session...
If this album doesn't land me a record deal, nothing ever will. The project named, The Confessional, is one that me and my good friend and writing/music partner have been working on for at least 5 years or so now, but we've changed, and grown, and evolved... and the music speaks for itself. Her on lead vocals/songwriting duties/guitars and me on drums and percussion... and then we meet Deanna, who's just like us, and a great musician... she's on the bass, trumpet, among other things.

We just need that final person on lead guitar to finalize the amazing journey we have created. We worked on Chrysalis last night and added a gong and a synth and it's now an instrumental epic inspired by Tool, Rush, Tori Amos, and thousands of other musical phenoms... And then we put the finishing touches on Pretty Little Mess, a surfer rock tune, inspired by The Cramps/Dead Kennedy's/Dick Dale... wow, this entire project has been very therapeutic. All true stories about life experience we've all went through, from the dark to the light, from anger to love. I can't wait till it's finished!

You just wait, mark my work. I feel a record deal, not something huge, something little from some indepedent female fronted label. I want to continue to create on drums, the one thing that's gotten me through life. But even if it doesn't come, as to most it does not, I will continue to create.