Interesting

My life feels very complex right now. I've had a wonderful weekend that started off with me taking it easy and taking a mental breather and then fled into a crazy whirlwind, rock and roll kind of tailspin and back, into being confused and determined in the end.

This week I am dreading, because I feel that I will never sleep and could simply die from exhaustion. I feel so tired all the time and it's because my body hates to work some of these hours I am currently being asked to work. Soon they keep telling me, it will change... and I felt from the start that I came into the position setting my own rules and now I have been twisted up in the claw of shift work. Uggg....not what I ever wanted to do, I want to create. I must create to live, I must play music period. I must record things, I want to record things. I WILL make this happen, I must. If not, I feel no desire to walk upon this earth. I will not give in to the regularity of a boring life, until I die.

Until then, regularity, drums, writing, editing, recording, and headaches resume. I need a vacation.